January 2010
“so i guess yuh were one of those people who were suppose to walk into my life...”
“So this is when we finally learn the real meaning of change. You do the things...”
“if yuh have to try and convince yurself that yuh don’t care about...”
I
sence a tradegy coming on?
anyways I didn’t go to school today don’t ask why just didn’t(:
my moms been MIA since last night getting me kinda worried
and Ima go to school afterschool lol to meet up with vans cuz Ima go kick it at her house and hopefully I get to talk to him just to let out out some things
and well yeah in the meantime I should probably get started on my...
Maybe..
I pushed him so far away that he’s left?
I should be there for him through everything he should be by my side to be there as the bestfriends we said we’d always be
we made a promise.
I wanna keep it but I think he gave up on our friendship?
And once yuh give up that means yuh forgot why it was valuble in the first place
I know I shouldnt I know I’m going to end up hurt
but...
class time is fun tim time:D
cant wait to forget about this with santiago and just be happy again
even if we cant hang out outside of school anymore cuz that way id never loose feeling for him
so it has to be at school x)
He's defenitely
worth swallowing my pride atleast once.
I mean atleast I could feel good with myself knowing I gave it another chance. Cuz this can’t be the end,it just can’t.
He’s too muh of my life for me to let our friendship fade away..
So I got a text..
‘I’m truly sorry…. If you never want me as a friend I understand’
I’m guessing he wants us to be back to how we were before?..
Maybe he’s tryin to be the bigger person?
Maybe he just means it?
Maybe I’m analyzing this too much? x)
I want to keep distance but still be at peace.
But nothing he does or say can possibly change my decision of defenitly...
The funny thing is..
I honestly don’t feel heartbroken
maybe just a bit butthurt that she won. She was able to tear apart a friendship I thought was completely unbreakable.
But wow was I wrong!
But hey to look at the positive I’m so happy this just makes me feel less and less emotion toward him
I mean yeah he is someone I would like to have in my life no shame in that but maybe just maybe I don’t...
“Doesn’t matter what you do its wat yuh did that hurts”
“If you ask me what’s wrong? And I say nothing. Then there’s...”
Fuck you! Fuck her! and Fuck being bestfriends!
you lost someone that shouldn’t but still cares about you and i lost a jerk that doesnt know the meaning of ‘i love you’
you said you needed me in yur life and know yur proving that it was all bullshit
so fuck yuh this just makes me want to be over yuh even sooner!
atleast im not gunna be wating anymore time on someone that...
‘It’s clearer than water that I need you’
but i’m done waiting so this isn’t goodbye but a see yuh later
I have to admit..
His words hurt me more than I’ll ever let him know..
I think a part of my heart is breaking.
Over it
Pinky promise in the rain
‘im scared to get too close to people i dont want to have to go through losing them’
too bad its a little to late for that
i wish..
we could erase what happened and what is happening
but we cant so know we just have to deal with it somehow thats if he even cares about fixing this
he has no idea how painful this is for me,im sure for him its just like a bruise that will heal quickly.
how stupid was i to think we didn’t have secrets,and that we had complete trust in eacthother
He said i was someone he needs in his life...
Bullshit
Wow what a fcken day
A week ago I would of never imagined any of this happening
&In the process I lost my bestfriend too
and all he could say was sorry
It’s just unbelievable how everything happened
while I was falling for him he was falling for her and she was falling for him
talk about a love triangle
&After all this time he couldn’t come clean
so this just closes the...
I'm done!
I’m not gunna take it anymore I shouldn’t!
I’m done waiting
I’m done wishing
I’m done holding on to something I know won’t happen
it’s just not worth holding on anymore!
why yes.
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yeah..
it was okay we laughes he smile we hugged<3
i absolutely love his gift and he said he liked mines(:
it might seem very weird of me but its wasnt as happy as i expected maybe it just wasnt the right time or place.
who knows?
maybe he notcied there was something a little wierd about this time?..
theadore
cant wait for tomarow,finally its gunna be tuesday :D
maybe i shouldn’t be putting my hopes too high but i cant find something that’s gunna ruin tomorrow<3
If you believe in Jesus Christ, reblog this.
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why? not even me :o
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ahh so evil,when i tell you everything x)
you don’t tell me anything!
liar >.< i tell you...
This day..
Sucked balls!
Nthing wet wrong but nothing went right either
2word:bad day!
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liar >.< i tell you everything :D
i kant tell u =[
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ahh so evil,when i tell you everything x)
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finally (:
“anyone can make you smile or cry but it takes someone really special to make you...”
– blanca<3
ohhh lord
i think i have no idea where our realtionship stands?
were not fighting were talking and laughing and everything but this other skank really gets to me >.<
but then again i think were both trying to make eachtoher jealous?
and it working on me so it better be working on him lol
lets just see how things go on tuesday<3
gift exchange and tree climbing is all in the plan(:
5more dayss..
Till I see him
